Links to: Funeral Program Obituary My talk at the funeral Recording of the funeral His last voicemail to me on August 2 I don’t even know where to begin. I miss Ben so much more than I could ever write down or type into a computer. I’ve tried to take notes on things that have happened and how I’ve felt through all of this, and I want to try and capture some of that, although I’m not sure why. Partly because it helps me to remember some of those impressions, partly because I want to have all of this—photos, memories, etc.—in one place, and partly because I hope that it might be useful to someone else in a time of need. I’m really not sure. I was amazed to hear from so many people who have been through similar situations, and I feel so incredibly sad that they know how I feel. I would never wish for anyone else to understand how I feel right now—to experience this pain and heartache. To start, I will try and summarize the experience. Kyle and I had bee